Howard Wolowitz's striking of a match on Big Bang Theory exploded in my head. Finally, an inkling of a way to approach the situation of perceiving reality. Not in the mood to even start organizing the facets involved tonight but things I don't want to forget.

1. How Big Bang made the universe fall into place;
     Is it a worthwhile activity given the condition of the world?
     How can we make this realization work toward an understanding;
2. How Buddy the cat lends himself to showing how the universe is constructed by the perceiver;
3. Need to assess my relationship to death;
4. Because so many things tie together, it might be beneficial to use something like Scrivener to do the actual writing and organization.
5. How much of this to I bring to this blog.
6. Decide if this blog worth any effort. What are my alternative writing activities?

I saved Big Bang to watch it some more. Tonight is the revelation but I want to see what happens within the show that sparked it all. This is so cool: Big Bang ties to THE Big Bang and also to my big bang.

Today is astonishing:

Stress test at hospital this morning turned out OK. Started lucky by being first patient of the day for this particular procedure, then having my own cardiologist conduct the test, being told that there has been no heart attack and the apparent efficacy of the med he assigned might be a successful solution to the discomfort I've been experiencing. See him next Monday for results. Have to ask whether stress could cause the symptoms.

Went from feeling terrible to actually feeling wonderful this moment.

Why am I going to do this? Does it matter if no one else cares?

It seems amazing that the perception of reality can change so rapidly. Layers upon layers of perceptual levels; a stew of systems interacting is astonishing complex currents. A giant fish tank of roiling waters. Sheets of realities intersect (Me and Buddy) much like those theorized by today's physicists about reality at the universe level.

Long day.